Breaking Glass

Oh you're funny
baby you're so god damn funny
maybe you should write this all down
because your story keeps changing
you're bad at lying
but I'm not quite sure what it is you're lying about now
you lost me at your fake "I'm sorry"
you're not at all sorry love
don't worry, I've figured you out by now
you were right when you said I'm angry
it's scary how much I want to do something drastic
that balcony is looking mighty fine
in all my anger I'm surprised that it's my body I imagine falling to the hard ground below
when I could just as easily picture you
it's no secret that if it happened it wouldn't phase you one bit
I'm sure the town would be at a great loss
but I was more concerned with how you would feel
but you don't
you heartless bastard
you can admit to it forever baby
but that doesn't change how you don't care
you know you make mistakes
it doesn't make it right if you don't do anything about making some changes
speaking of becoming someone better
I'm fine with who I am
and you don't realized how insecure your words make me feel
that you wish I were someone else
that things would be so much better if I was her
too bad I'm not

I HATE YOU

and the sad thing is:
you're okay with that

In the Fog of Dreams

Like a blur
life does not merely pass me by
yet you seem to stay in the shadows
and like a dream you haunt me
I only see you when I'm sleeping
moonlight aloe
soothes daylight burns
and I'm wondering what I'm doing here
the flood gates break
and in a rush of emotion I'm caught up in something deadly
what exactly are we doing here?
the room is spinning
and the ringing in my ears is getting louder
this has gone way past simple confusion
rock solid my feelings stood cemented
yours, however, were ground on loose soil
slipping
in an avalanche of fear things seemed to change
but just for one
just for you
can you blame my mind for spinning?
in this whirlpool you've created
falling faster, and faster
you tried to stop it
but you're the one who pulled the plug
The damp cold consumes me
fear, confusion, and anger jolt me
...as I wake up in this cold sweat

Silence in a white room

I don't know what to say to get you to start talking
how could they?
cut out your tongue and let you live
this tragedy has gone too far
and I'm out of ideas
for saving you this time
Your voice used to be so soothing
and now I'm dying to hear those words
as frustration leaks from my eyes
and pools on the dirty floor
as I fall
The ceiling tiles aren't as pretty as your face
but they are the best thing I've got
remembering hurts too much
and hope only signals impending doom
so what have I got these days?
Silence in a white room...

Penny For Your Thoughts

Baby, would you put away that mirror?
I don't like the way I look when I'm angry
I'm laughing but I don't know why
and hearing your voice only makes me angry
but don't be afraid baby
it's not you that feeds my anger
it's the lonely road
Can you hear me smile?
I'm trying so hard to hear your smiles
but all I get is silence
I've had enough of using my imagination
thoughts only get you so far
and I'm about spent

Your Catastrophe Could Be Our Good Fortune

Should I be ashamed of what I feel?
This black hole I'm in isn't getting any smaller
and I'm starting to feel like there's no way out
it's so quiet in here
I can hear every thought and they echo so loudly
I've fallen to my knees
and I'm begging for a way out
you say you'd like to fly among the Gods
but baby, you've fallen just like me
it's up to you if you want to be with a fallen angel
I could be worth fighting for
and I just want to be wanted
I'm being encompassed by darkness
and perhaps the sun is the only thing to save me
and I know you're afraid of falling again
but I promise I'll hold on tight

These Words Aren't Fallacy

Waste the day
and walk the night
as the moon rises and falls I fall more and more
Words of kindness, words of truth
I couldn't have asked for a better curse
my outlook was looking bleak
then you gave new light to my growing darkness
I've been fighting back this evil
so eager to deny it
not wanting to feel the burn
of fallacy ringing through these hallways
those before you shattered me
I sought solace in the ruins
you took my hand and pulled me up
and helped me piece everything back together
fragile beauty hides no longer
but fear ran through my veins like fire
now the fire smolders

"Tell me you love me."

I love a vampire.

Public Service Announcement

PLEASE EXCUSE THIS INTERRUPTION:

I don't mean to disturb you.

The words that flow form my mouth mean nothing.
They are static to your ears.
I'm sorry this signal is weak.
My wiring isn't the greatest these days.
The picture was too blurry and I couldn't see, but I've adjusted the settings and you're coming in loud and clear.
Now I can see what is happening on the big screen.
I stare in amazement as I realize just how wrong I was.
I've wasted your precious time and for that I apologize.
I think you get the picture and I'm sorry for the confusion.

PLEASE CONTINUE WITH YOUR REGULARLY SCHEDULED PROGRAMMING.