Sunday, June 25, 2006
Scream, out loud this time and not to myself. Rip the vocal chords. Let them know the pain inside. Smash the mirror, let it fall. A million pieces for a million tears that should not have fallen. As the air escapes the emotions flood and it becomes more than just a scream. Stand in the silence, shaking. Watch the unsteady hand, listen to the inhale, feel the rapid heart. To see the skin, to hear the breath, to feel the beat of the core, I am alive. A miracle in light of all that has happened. Confusion covers like a blanket and darkens all logic. I fear what has not happened is not far off. Life has been tested one too many times.